Moving forward begins with the self.
I’m glad I started filtering your updates in Facebook. I have always been curious as to what you were up to, and every time your name appeared onscreen, I couldn’t help but take a quick peek at your page to see what was going on. Filtering? Brilliant idea. Not even a month has passed before I totally forgot that you even existed.
I’m glad I had the courage to tell you what I knew about you all along. I should have done it earlier, and perhaps met with you in person, but for a non-confrontational guy like me, those messages were a big deal and a big step forward. I’m glad that you’re fixing your life, but it’s a little bit too late for us. The good news? It might not be too late for you.
I’m glad I started to manage expectations. I’m no longer the eager boy I was when the year began. I realize that people do not always turn out to be the majestic angels I once envisioned them to be, so I adjusted my expectations accordingly. Too much time, effort, and money have been spent on people who disappoint you in the end.
I’m glad I’m a stronger person because of the pain. I’m glad I’m a wiser person because of the disappointments.
But most important:
I’m glad this phase is now over, because I’m getting sick of writing the same old tired words on the same old tired themes surrounding the same old tired phases of this same old tired life.
moving on. always needs is a first step. :)
(here we go again) i mean, it always needs a first step. lol
Always, themes recur, patterns repeat. The only good thing is that we could either expect the result or swerve off to a different direction.
If only it were that easy. Unfortunately, the themes and patterns are not always so clear, so the direction to take is almost always uncertain.
First step taken, months and months ago. Late response. Haha.
Congratulations on the win, Nyl.