Battling Studies

It all began in October 2004, when I decided not to go back home to Davao for the semestral break just so I could spend my days in McDonald’s Katipunan to study for my first actuarial exam. My friends in the dorm had already left for their provinces, and those that remained had a few fun adventures in mind to merit their prolonged stay. I had no such reasons, no such adventures. I didn’t know it back then, but skipping vacation for studying was just the first of many sacrifices that I had to make in pursuit of this actuarial dream.

In this world, the exams are battles, and the dream is the war.

In a nutshell, the dream is this: to become a Fellow of the Actuarial Society of the Philippines. Four exams entitle you to Associateship; four more entitle you to Fellowship. In an ideal world where unicorns exist and pigs fly, these exams will be like puffy cotton candies that I can eat while I dance and sing my way to the Wizard to claim my Fellowship. But this isn’t an ideal world. In this world, the exams are battles, and the dream is the war. And just like any typical foray into the fray, people fail (say, thrice, two of which consecutively), people cry, and people do not make it.

Five years, ten takes, and seven exams later, I am still standing. And I am still battling my studies to win this war. What began in October 2004 as a trade-off between vacation and vocation have transformed into a lifestyle of sacrifice, but it’s OK. I’m fine. With the end in sight and one more test left to hurdle, what’s another few months, right?

If this means victory, then I will charge into the fight head-on.

Darkness (II)

I stand in the corner, my back pressed against the wall, my eyes darting left and right. No sign of activity. Only the green strobes of light running across my body and my face, the menacing rays of which I’m trying to avoid. Anonymity is key in the darkness. Unrecognized, I can stealthily move past the searing lights and strike. If I’m lucky, I score. If not, I move to another spot and try again.

Anonymity is key in the darkness.

There are always other people who will love to see me down. Vulnerability is the juice that drives them to pursue me relentlessly, so I avoid appearing weak. Even as I hide among the shadows, I move with agility and with a clear sense of purpose. I must mean business. Hesitations can only lead to my paralysis, and it is never good to be paralyzed in the darkness.

The goal of the pursuit is to score. I must always remember this.

The corner where I am at is no longer friendly territory. Someone familiar is approaching, and he is not an ally; he is an enemy. From the way his feet shuffle against the floor, from the way his hands quiver, and from the way he keeps checking his back, I know that he is unsure about his surroundings. A newbie, in other words. I can overcome him. He is an easy prey.

With just a few steps separating us, I brandish my weapon and strike. His face is in shock as he sees me, but his recognition comes too late. He is down. I finally get the points.

One out, 28 more to go.

In this LazerXtreme Arena, I shall rise above all others. I will be number one.

Darkness (I)

I am not in a good place right now. I am fucking pissed, in other words. Kerwin will take a back seat.

Mak and Kerwin were talking this afternoon about how they perceive rejections from people to whom they extend invitations. Kerwin said, in all honesty, that he doesn’t mind rejections, except when they come from some very special people. These are the persons who Kerwin thinks are a notch above the rest, those he thinks are the best among the bunch.

The idiot. People disappoint. He will never learn.

And with that, I’m off to face the dark alone. Kerwin can never handle it, so I’m taking over, at least for tonight. Let’s see how different the experience really is.

It’s time to bring the fucking house down.

Into the Abyss I Went

Operative word: went. Past tense. Because I now realize how foolish I was to pin my hopes on something totally fleeting, and how naive it was for me to expect things would blossom into something wonderfully concrete. You just underwent a life-changing rebirth, and I didn’t exactly know what I wanted. Not the most encouraging combination.

Into the abyss I went. Epic fail.

Into the abyss I went. Epic fail.

If this didn’t happen to me, I could almost say it’s comical. Something that How I Met Your Mother would totally be on-board with. The episode would go something like this: after breaking up with, say, Stella, Ted Mosby meets Persephone Matthews, a girl he absolutely adored way back when they were in primary school. He chats her up through text and what-not, but realizes soon enough that Persephone is not interested in him. Their only connection is their experience in grade school, and that is simply not enough. Still, Ted yearns for her but he does not understand why. Fast forward to a scene “2 YEARS LATER” and Ted meets Janine Matherson, and he becomes obsessed. Janine is everything that he has hoped his ideal girl would be: beautiful, smart, and charming. Unfortunately, Janine is just being polite and not really interested in him. Still, the obsession remains, and will remain for quite some time. Cut to a scene in the “PRESENT DAY” and Ted has just recovered from his Janine obsession. This is when, in perfect comedic timing, Kirstie Rogue comes along. Kirstie is a college crush. If Janine was someone he thought would be perfect for him as a girlfriend, Kirstie was Mother material. But as these things go for Ted, Kirstie is not really interested, eschewing a chance at love for a life of partying and boys. Inexplicably, Ted trudges on. The episode ends with more heartbreak for our hero, and another opportunity for the show to screw the audience with red herrings as to the identity of the elusive Mother.

But before the episode truly ends, a realization (probably delivered most convincingly by Lily): “Ted. I get it. You’re totally obsessed with women you know you can’t have. Persephone, Janine, Kirstie– all these girls, you know they don’t really like you, and still you persevere. You don’t really like them for them. The moment they like you back, this obsession will end, and you’ll start yearning for someone else.”

“That can’t be true,” Ted stammers. “I really liked them.”

“Yes, but only for the challenge that they pose. Listen to me, you have to get over it. You have to nip this obsession in the bud. Because if you don’t, you’ll only end up brainwashing yourself even more into liking them. The obsession will not stop.”

And then it hits Ted: Lily was right. But what Lily did not say was this: was he so afraid of committing to a serious relationship that he’s so eager to chase after people he knows will reject him? In the same manner, was he so afraid of committing to a serious relationship that he’s so eager to ignore the people who actually likes him, and he might actually like back?

Overwhelming

I am overwhelmed by feeling. I am overwhelmed by feeling. I am overwhelmed by feeling.

And I am weakened by it.

...I find myself looking through the eyes of the people I have hurt, and I am deeply affected by what I see.

I thought that I have protected myself enough. I thought that I have learned to shield my emotions with a heavy coating of cynicism and jadedness. I thought that after the events of 2008, I have finally found a way to level my expectations with reality.

You have made me vulnerable.

It’s not even about romance anymore. It’s not even about you anymore. These past few days have witnessed me exposed in more ways than the erotic, than the romantic. I am bare. I tried telling myself that it’s just the ounces of alcohol remaining in my system. I tried telling myself that I just lack sleep. But nine peaceful hours later, my stomach is no longer queasy, but my mind and heart still are. Each little incident excites/depresses/ignites/saddens me. I find myself calling people left and right to share the experience. I find myself blogging things I don’t normally write about, in a persona I thought I have left behind in high school. And most eerily– most painfully– I find myself looking through the eyes of the people I have hurt, and I am deeply affected by what I see.

I am sorry. I am very, very sorry.

This sensitivity is killing me.

What have you opened? What did you do to me?

This, The Other

I feel awesome.

I am awesome.

I don’t know what sort of self-confidence issues this Kerwin guy has with himself, but I have none of them. I am brilliant, I am talented, I am attractive, I can get anyone I lay my eyes on. I can break hearts as easily as I can make them beat faster– for me, and only me. I can destroy relationships with a single innocent, disarming smile. I can enchant with well-chosen words; I can charm with well-crafted conversations.

I have had enough of the hesitations. I have had enough of the waiting that goes with risk aversion. There was a time in this guy’s life when I, the Other, held control. I did things Kerwin couldn’t do, or at least thought he couldn’t do. The goody-two-shoes stayed within the lines, always, in perfect harmony with the rest, in unadulterated obedience with the instructions. When I emerged, I took the fucking crayons and broke them; took the fucking paper and shredded it into pieces; spat on the floor and pissed on the motherfucking plants.

It felt good. It felt really good.

But I got restrained in the end. There was too much melancholy and too little anger to go around. There was only self-pity but no real push to change things my way. So for a long time, I stayed subdued. Inside, waiting, wanting to find the perfect set of circumstances to come out once again.

Who knew that three consecutive nights of drinking and partying, an unexpected revelation, and a cunning little devil could trigger everything again? In between bottles of Tanduay Ice, wisps of silver smoke, and the darkness that overwhelmed, I found myself seeing the self I so badly missed. So badly wanted to hug. So badly wanted to caress.

So badly wanted to take over.

I think it’s about time to make Kerwin awesome once again, don’t you?

Yearend Series 2009: These Are A Few of My Favorite Things… (III)

…and then I don’t feel so bad.

MOVIES

I can only recall three instances when I went to watch a movie in the theater alone. The first was in high school, and it was an experiment I’ve always wanted to do then. I had to experience how it felt like to be seated in a dark movie theater with no one beside you, and the only companion you had were the characters on the screen. So I did it. The movie? Save the Last Dance, starring Julia Stiles and this black dude. Years later, I would find myself seated in the theater by my lonesome once again, but because of Filipino-cheesy-films phobia more than anything else. No one wanted to accompany me in watching Because of You (starring the VW Beetle, remember that movie?), and I really wanted to see how the Hero-Sandara tandem would fare, so I watched it by myself. Later on, after I gave my glowing review, somebody was finally persuaded to watch the movie again with me. The last instance, as far as I could remember, was brought on by a need to recover– it was a most painful heartbreak, and I needed to get away, at least temporarily. The Devil Wears Prada was perhaps the perfect solution for that profound loneliness. Never mind if I was crying at the wrong parts, or the slightest tinge of emotion from Anne Hathaway had me sobbing like crazy. What mattered was that I found an escape from the pain.

Honestly, I don’t like going to movies alone. For me, watching films on the silver screen is a shared activity. It’s almost like Mass, come to think about it– you go there as a community, but it’s rude to talk to each other while you’re there. Same thing with movies. It’s a more complex experience when you’re with family or friends (or a date). Something very amazing and refreshing happens when people with different perspectives converge to watch one single thing.

Of course, all this might just be a front from the real reason that watching movies alone makes me feel alone.

In any case, good thing that none of my top 10 movies of 2009 were watched under such dire circumstances. Here they are. [You can't read all the text in the normal view. Click on FS to have the gallery play on full screen, and click the "i" on the upper-right corner to read the text. Besides, the movie posters look a lot cooler in full-scale.]

2009: Movies

[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_10-julie-and-julia.jpg]Julie and Julia
Cooking and blogging in one movie? Meryl Streep as Julia Child? The adorable Amy Adams as Julie? Despite the apparent "gloss-over" the movie made on Julie's real attitude (it was based on two true stories, remember), the end result was still a delectable delight.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_9-watchmen.jpg]Watchmen
This is perhaps the year of sci-fi and graphic novel adaptations. Four of the movies in my top 10 are actually such, and Watchmen brings up the rear at number 9. Admittedly, at first, I thought only the first 10 minutes was amazing (the loooong intro), and I was adamant about hating the rest of it. But looking back, the visuals are actually spectacular, the soundtrack quite haunting, and the characters unforgettable. Not bad for an adaptation, and not bad for a change of heart. :P
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_8-the-hangover.jpg]The Hangover
One of the funniest and most intelligent movies of the year. It's already difficult enough to put together an "investigative" movie, but for TPTB to actually make it hilarious? That's another feat altogether.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_7-hannah-montana-the-movie.jpg]Hannah Montana the Movie
I feel like I owe Miley Cyrus an apology. 2009 was totally her year. First, the success of The Climb and Party in the USA catapulted her to teen superstardom, something that Hilary Duff failed to accomplish (I don't know why I have to diss on Ms Lizzie), and her movie Hannah Montana was something that I truly enjoyed. The "popular star goes back to her roots" plot has been overdone, but for Miley, it seems like it's just right. Maybe it helped that I loathed Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince so much that this shone in comparison.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_6-up.jpg]Up
Not my favorite Pixar film to date (the honor still belongs to Ratatouille), but not my least loved, either. It panned out pretty much like Wall-E did: brilliant use of the first 15 minutes, then a twist into the conventional for the rest of the film. That first 15 minutes, for me, saved the picture from falling into "meh" category: the segment was surprisingly mature, and wonderfully full of emotion. Partly Cloudy, the short film shown before the actual movie, is one of my favorite shorts thus far.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_5-17-again.jpg]17 Again
Like I said in my previous blog, 17 Again, despite all the gratuitous shots of Zac Efron, contains a coherent story about second chances, and how we never really need them. It's a feel-good movie, all right, one that might give you a throwback into how you were when you were seventeen.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_4-star-trek.jpg]Star Trek
Of all the Star Trek movies and reincarnations on TV, I'm ashamed to admit that I've watched none of them. So I went into the movie thinking that this would suck, and that I was going to waste my iMax experience on this strange piece of crapola. How wrong I was. How very, very wrong. It's an ensemble movie, one that works because each character has something to offer to move the movie forward. And at the helm of this ensemble is one Chris Pine, who, after Just My Luck, I once relegated to the role of "charming leading man who doesn't do much," pretty much like James Marsden. Again, wrong. Chris Pine is more Heath Ledger than James Marsden, and a pretty good lead at that.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_3-district-9.jpg]District 9
In the middle of all the sociological and philosophical issues-- the human-alien social interaction, the ostracization, the delicate use of alien weaponry, the meaning of life in the context of an alien environment-- there's an unconventional and touching love story. Steel flowers, anyone?
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_2-kimmy-dora.jpg]Kimmy Dora: Kambal sa Kiyeme
After watching Kimmy Dora for the first time, I went to the office the following day to promote the movie (a little too scandalously, a little too proudly). I told them: "I will not promote any another film this year aside from this one. Go watch it." I managed to convince almost all of them and the consensus was pretty much the same: HI-LA--wait for it-- RIOUS. Eugene Domingo is the new Ai-Ai in terms of star quality, and way, way, WAY funnier than Ai-ai could ever hope to be.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-movies/thumbs/thumbs_1-avatar.jpg]Avatar
I lied when I said that I was not going to promote any other film after Kimmy Dora. I was so close to making good on that promise. 2009 was about to end and no other movie had more impact on me than Eugene Domingo's foray into lead material. Until Avatar came along. Much has been said about the movie's visuals, and I cannot deny the awesomeness of the experience (MUST watch in 3-D), but beyond that, the movie has HEART. Jake Sully is not the easiest character to love, but as the movie progressed, I came to sympathize with him and his cause. Avatar guided us as Pandora guided Jake Sully-- through an overload on the senses, and through an overdose of feeling.

Yearend Series 2009: These Are A Few of My Favorite Things… (II)

and then I don’t feel so bad.

TV

When Pinoy Big Brother first piqued our voyeuristic natures back in 2005, my roommate and I decided that it was time to buy ourselves a television. Pay wasn’t that good; I just graduated from college then, and was just a few months into corporate slavery working as a management associate for an insurance company. Nevertheless, I couldn’t resist the lure of mindless entertainment. So off to SM we went, choosing the best television set that we could afford given our limited cash. We ended up buying a bulky 21” Sanyo TV. High def what? Flat screen what?

After 4 years, Pinoy Big Brother is now at its third regular season. Shortly after The Big Reveal, my roommate and I decided that it was time to buy ourselves a new TV. He was now working, and I was considerably better off than I was in 2005. Armed with my new credit card, we headed off to Rockwell where we bought the best television set that my credit limit could take. We ended up buying a sleek 32″ Toshiba LCD TV.

Of course, right after tweaking the necessary techie thingamajig, we plopped down on the bed and watched as Rica and Rob pretended they were lovers. Some things never change.

(POSSIBLE SPOILERS IN GALLERY. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.)

2009: Shows

[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_10-the-amazing-race.jpg]The Amazing Race, Season 14
Winners: Tammy and Victor Like/Dislike: Like Although my love for The Amazing Race remains, its novelty has worn off, and my fanaticism extends somehow due to nostalgia more than anything else. Still, Season 14 (not Season 15, the one with Meghan and Cheyne) produced victors (get it?) that I found myself rooting for.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_9-antm.jpg]America's Next Top Model, Cycle 12
Winner: Teyona Like/Dislike: Dislike While I hated the winner of Cycle 12 (Teyona), this cycle produced perhaps my second most favorite contestant of all time: the big-eyed (not wide, wide is an understatement) Allison. Charming and sweet and ferosh and fierce all at the same time, this girl captured my ANTM-loving heart.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_8-project-runway.jpg]Project Runway, Season 6
Winner: Irina Like/Dislike: Dislike Project Runway scored a bit higher than the previous two shows because it was a return to a former love for me. I used to wait A WEEK for this show to air in Studio 23. I was a bit disappointed with Irina's win and the frequent absences of Nina Garcia and Michael Kors, but what the hell. It's Project Runway.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_7-mmas.jpg]Make Me A Supermodel, Season 2
Winner: Branden Like/Dislike: Like Two major differences between ANTM and MMAS: first, MMAS also caters to male models. Second, this show actually includes weekly go-sees and catwalks aside from the usual photo shoots. It's shocking to see winners getting go-sees as their prize for winning the photo challenges. It almost feels like I'm watching a REAL modelling show, TYRA.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_6-gossip-girl.jpg]Gossip Girl, Season 3
Best Character: Nate Archibald, for being just awesomely hilarious with his "best buddy" scenes with Dan. Never thought Nate had a flair for comedy. Worst Character: Blair Waldorf, for being obsessed about queendom in NYU. It's college, Blair-- why are you growing backwards? Character That Made Me Uncomfortable the Most: Olivia Burke. Lizzie McGuire engaging in threesomes. What will Gordo say?
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_5-american-idol.jpg]American Idol, Season 8
Winner: Kris Allen Like/Dislike: Like This season, for me, had the best top 5 ever, and perhaps the best top 2 ever. I wanted Adam Lambert to win, by golly I did, but Kris Allen was a fantastic contender for the top spot. I didn't mind it when he won; his voice, like I mentioned in my 2009: Music gallery, is quite soothing.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_4-glee.jpg]Glee, Season 1
Best Character: Sue Sylvester, for being deliciously wicked. She'll probably knock me out for describing her as such. Worst Character: Artie. I don't like him for some reason. He does not compute. Best Character, But In A Totally Fucked Up Way: Miss Ohio. Watch the Sectionals. You'll see what I mean.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_3-top-chef.jpg]Top Chef, Season 6
Winner: Michael Voltaggio Like/Dislike: Like Most amazing Top 4 ever. I had my hopes pinned on my darling Jennifer, but with three other very talented cheftestants in the mix with her (including a set of identical twins!), I accepted the fact that it was probably her show to lose. No matter. It made for great TV.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_2-pinoy-big-brother.jpg]Pinoy Big Brother, Season 3
Winner: most probably Melissa Like/Dislike: Dislike Hahaha. I'm a fan of Melason, I really am, but Melissa's just too much for me take. She's loud and overbearing, and seems too comical to be truly sincere. Nevertheless, this season is perhaps Dyogi's strongest to date (including all the celebrity and teen editions). The two-houses idea was superb, and the new voting process is a mathematical delight.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-shows/thumbs/thumbs_1-dollhouse.jpg]Dollhouse, Seasons 1 and 2
The best thing in television today. Grab your non-pirated DVD copies. It is worth every penny that you'll spend, and watching it is worth every second of your life. (And oh, Fox cancelled the series. $%!%%#@GRRR)

Yearend Series 2009: These Are A Few of My Favorite Things… (I)

…and then I don’t feel so bad.

(No more April yearend entries this time. Gosh, that was lame.)

MUSIC

Tonight, I will be deleting all the music in my iPod and will start the painstaking task of building my portable music database once again. This will entail 1) said deletion; 2) replacing the corrupted album art with workable ones; 3) selecting my favorite tracks from each album I have downloaded (I download by album most of the time); 4) attaching the workable album art to these tracks; and 5) transferring all the files to my iPod Touch. Now that work’s starting once again, I don’t think I’ll be able to accomplish this before the end of the month, but the deletion will have to take place tonight. Just so I know there’s nothing in there for me, and unless I act, music will no longer reach my ears.

Before I do that, though, I have to pay homage to the singles that made my 2009 a more musical year to be in (Don’t forget to click the “i” on the upper-right corner, OK?):

2009: Music

[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_10-no-boundaries-al.jpg]No Boundaries - Adam Lambert
I am an Adam Lambert fan, no doubt about it. His best performance in the Idol Season-- Tracks of My Tears-- still fills me with awe (and goosebumps) each time I revisit it in YouTube. He should have won that competition, IMO. No Boundaries, that godawful coronation song, comes in at number 10. Such passion! Such drive! Such control! Whenever I go to the gym to run on the treadmill, his version of the song's the one that's playing in my iPod.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_9-three.jpg]Three - Britney Spears
It's nice to see BritBrit back in the limelight in 2009. Circus, released late 2008, produced for Britney an onslaught of top hits, placing her in positions she once held way back in 1997. It's no secret from my friends that I've been a big Britney fan since high school, so it was refreshing to see her in the tube again, and all for the right reasons. Three grabs the number 9 spot. Infinitely catchy, and it's about threesomes! I cannot complain.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_8-if-u-seek-amy.jpg]If You Seek Amy - Britney Spears
Perhaps the most controversial of all the singles released from Circus, If U Seek Amy combines a naughtiness that is patently Britney, and incorporates a wordplay that is both surprising (the first time) and surprisingly hard to forget (after that first time).
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_7-no-boundaries-ka.jpg]No Boundaries - Kris Allen
Okay, I'll give it to Kris Allen: he sounds REALLY good in his studio recordings. In fact, I like his voice so much that he appears twice in my top 10. There's just something very soothing about his voice. This is perhaps one of the reasons why I'm changing my American Idol criteria for 2010. I'll do it as White does it: judge the performances and judge the iTunes studio recordings. This should intensify the mathematics a bit, but what's a little arithmetic here and there?
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_6-party-in-the-usa.jpg]Party in the USA - Miley Cyrus
Who would have thought that one country girl from Tennessee would make it big and become of the best-selling pop stars of the latter part of the decade? Who would have thought that she would be living two lives? Who would have thought that this simple girl would be disrupting her best friend's birthday by the beach, would meet a jailbait hunk who likes to ride horses shirtless, and would get in a catfight with Tyra Ba-- Oh, that's the plot of Hannah Montana. *shrugs* Party in the USA, numero seis.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_5-touch-my-hand.jpg]Touch My Hand - David Archuleta
The parade of American Idol contestants begins. Touch My Hand kicks off the front end of the countdown at number 5.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_4-a-little-too-not-over-you.jpg]A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta
Archie reigned supreme last year, with 5 songs in the top 10. With two in the top 10 this year, it's still not a bad showing from baby Archie. (Granted, the two songs this year also appeared last year, so I may have a little bias there.)
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_3-live-like-were-dying.jpg]Live Like We're Dying - Kris Allen
I haven't downloaded Adam's For Your Entertainment just yet (don't get me started on the cover art), so I don't know how it would measure up, but Kris Allen's first single, Live Like We're Dying, is a very good foundation to base his album, and ultimately his career, on. It's quite saddening to hear that album sales haven't been up to par with the rest of the American Idol alumni, but it's no Taylor Someone dud, so that's a relief. (Dear Awesome Jawline, why didn't I have the genes?)
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_2-battlefield.jpg]Battlefield - Jordin Sparks
Next to Kelly Clarkson's Longshot, my second most favorite song to listen to while working out, and the first track off any of Jordin's albums that I really liked. (I'm still bitter about Blake Lewis losing their American Idol season.)
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-music/thumbs/thumbs_1-do-you-remember.jpg]Do You Remember - Jay Sean
There are certain songs that you cannot get enough of. It may be a feel-good ballad that you can relate with, or an upbeat tune that can make you move your hips like yeah. Whatever the reason, these songs will surely be on loop at least once after it has been downloaded. Jay Sean's Do You Remember is one such song. Insanely rhythmic, it feels like each beat is an invitation to dance; each verse is a come-on to get your groove on.

Yearend Series 2009: The Year That Was

If you’re a weird person like me, you’ll probably have a ranking of your most favorite years in the past decade. If not, you’ll still have an inkling, more or less, of the Year My Life Sucked The Most, or the Year My Life Took A Stupendous Turn. There are certain events in the past decade that are utterly unforgettable, and these events are of the type that attach themselves to a particular year. Sometimes, when the circumstances are too extreme, they attach themselves to a specific date.

2009 is one of the great years.

2009 is one of the great years. Stepping out of the country for the first time, conquering my third local actuarial exam, resigning and moving to another company that provides better opportunities, and not having my love life as a primary personal concern– I don’t know how this year could have been any better. In fact, 2009 was awash with so many wonderful things that it has established itself as one of 3 best years this decade, right after 20021 and 20052.

Now, in the tradition of The Sunbaked King’s Yearend Series, here’s a blow-by-blow account of the events of the past year. I’ll keep it short, just to have the entire thing fit in a single post. (And since I’m spending $60 a year on this baby, might as well take advantage of it by incorporating some of the bells and whistles that come with the exorbitant price tag. Don’t forget to click the “i” on the upper right corner to see the note that’s attached with each photo!3)

2009 In Review

[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_january_yearend.jpg]January 2009
A question answered near the breaking of dawn. The 3 AM dismissal that would change the course of my career forever. A timely text message from a competitor. Witnessing the sunset up north.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_february_yearend.jpg]February 2009
A devastating failure. Ending the first three and a half years of my professional life. The musical that would haunt my soul in more ways than one.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_march_yearend.jpg]March 2009
From 20+ to 7, and oh, what a mighty seven! A heartbreak near Rockwell. The Most Annoying Person Thus Far. Honesty is such a lonely word.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_april_yearend.jpg]April 2009
Fitness First: 145 lbs. A death by the diversion road. Getting the groove on in work and in life. A repetitive blast from the past, he who would not quit.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_may_yearend.jpg]May 2009
The first signs of insecurity at work. The first onset of a professional breakdown. Shunning the Internet to study for the next exam. Replacing the Samsung D900 for a Nokia E71. A trip to Tagaytay.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_june_yearend.jpg]June 2009
A writer of sorts. The next exam. Another excursion to Tagaytay to say goodbye to a loved one. The Sunbaked King turns one. An admission. The silence that followed.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_july_yearend.jpg]July 2009
A wedding in Don Bosco, a reception in Manila Polo. The chaos of getting released from the bonds of scholarship. First trip abroad.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_august_yearend.jpg]August 2009
For each year for the past 25 years, the best month ever. Passing the second actuarial exam. A crazy-ass concert with Gaga. Regularization. Going on a wonderful Palawan excursion.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_august_yearend2.jpg]More of August 2009
A very long weekend with friends in Anawangin. Meeting a no-holds-barred online friend. Celebrating the birth of the real dark-skinned king.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_september_yearend.jpg]September 2009
Breaking the silence. Fast-wheeling and free falling in Clark.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_september_yearend2.jpg]More of September 2009
The devastation of Ondoy. The devastation of a death that felt so close. Saving my best friend. Moving my kingdom to another world, an old friend if you will.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_october_yearend.jpg]October 2009
Ateneo reigns supreme. More heartaches on the local front. Spring Awakening. Getting fitted with some new awesome glasses.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_november_yearend.jpg]November 2009
Watching the world through a different set... of cathode ray tubes. Fitness First: 125 lbs. First dip into the shores of Boracay. Zorbing! Banana boating! White beaching!
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_december_yearend.jpg]December 2009
The third actuarial exam. Making real amends. The "traditional humiliation in front of the entire company" thingie.
[img src=http://www.thesunbakedking.com/wp-content/flagallery/2009-in-review/thumbs/thumbs_december_yearend2.jpg]More of December 2009
Reunions, reunions, and more reunions. Going back home. Moving the kingdom once again. Coming full circle.


  1. Seventeen Again?
  2. The most peaceful and the most stable year I’ve had the entire decade.
  3. Special thanks are extended to Apparel Ateneo for the October picture.